You cannot rush the healing of a broken person. You cannot rush the healing of a broken heart. You cannot push the process of closure, of moving on. But you can heal. You can move on. In your own time. In your own will. You can.
I’m afraid of the darkness in my soul, of the void which I couldn’t fill, of that hollow pit in my being. I’m afraid of the evil within me and I’m scared of the poison flowing in my mind, in my heart.
I don’t know how to fight it. I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t know how to find you.
I’m trapped here. Every time I try to escape, its claws kept dragging me back. Seems it always know where to find me no matter where I hide. Where do I go from here? Where can I run? If it’s the thing inside me I’m running away from. Can I really fool myself?
I’ve asked a higher being. I’m sure I have. I’ve prayed. Oh please tell me I’ve sought for deliverance.
Is there salvation within? Are you still there? Can I still love my own self?