It’s December 1st! And it’s Christmas season once again. Sharing to you a beautiful message on this first day of Advent. Indeed, may we find the true meaning of Christmas amidst the normalcy and chaos of our everyday lives.
Today may just be like any other day.
We fill up the empty spaces in times between the rising and falling of the sun.
Seasons give way for the dawn and twilight of each day.
We constantly look for reasons; sometimes they find us, sometimes we get stuck.
But we still continue trying to figure everything out.
We go through each day and offer what we have.
Pick up the pieces left from the past and hope that what we do will somehow matter.
We feel guilty, angry, overjoyed but sometimes the enormity of it all leave us with nothing.
But still the sun rises. Life will still keep on following its pattern.
And we will still be here threading our lives until that golden hour.
There is a war in my soul that I don’t know how to stop.
A cancer metastasizing beneath my consciousness.
Tears are falling, heart is heavy.
And there seems to be no rest for my weary mind.
The whys and the hows are still waiting for answers.
I cannot blame anyone. I cannot ask anyone.
For the darkness is of my own doing.
Is there hope? Please tell me if there is hope?
Is there peace or clarity or anything? Something…please give me something.
Or am I fated to lose?